penniless

It was not a challenge at all.

For a weekend, in compliance with a school requirement, I have to restrain myself from excessive spending and must be able to survive with a minimum amount of money in my pocket.

Well. Honestly, I did not do the challenge that weekend.

Because I am living the challenge all my life.

Financially speaking, I am struggling.

I admit I am much more blessed than the least-fortunate-ones we know. I am from an earning family, living in a well-standing house, studying in the best school, and eating a decent meal twice a day. Based on that I feel I live a satisfying life. And I feel that it is enough for me to be happy.

However…

Here we go, the however stuff…

I admit that sometimes I am envious of the things my other classmates enjoy.

My everyday allowance is only 100 pesos which I have to budget for my daily fare, school requirements and personal stuff. Notice here that I do not include food in that budget list. And it is not even included in the personal stuff category. This is because of most the time I don’t eat lunch. I know this is wrong but it is the only way to budget such meager sum of money. My digestive system seem to be cooperating, I think that I am hunger-tolerant. But with those times that I feel I could no longer carry on, I would buy myself a 10 to 20 peso worth of snack, if is still have money, or if I have none, use my charm asking for my friends for a share of their snacks if they have one.

My only wish is to have my own money that I could budget and spend with no guilty feelings or whatever that I am spending my parents’ money for something insignificant.

I do not desire to be rich.

I only want to have my own.