and so i return...

yah. im back.

finally ive gotten rid of all the doubts in my mind.... "that im not worthy to be keeping this journal" "that im not a writer"

so who f**king cares! this is my lair... this is where i could be free, didn't i say?


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it is the worst enrollment ever....

i came to school by 7 just to skip all the hassles of standing in long queues only to be stabbed by an enemy i thought i am most prepared of .... all these years.....

that dreaded enemy called CRS...

damn CRS. i still havent forgiven it for having my preferred schedule unlisted.... and here it goes again with another blow...

they did not submit my form 5a in my college....

so i was asked by my advisers to secure another copy of my form 5a in the crs office in diliman computer center.....

and i asked them disappointingly, "pano yan pipila pa ko ulit ng mahaba?"

to my relief, they replied... "di na.. diretcho ka na sa akin"

i told myself, "buti naman"

and so i went to CRS office in Diliman Computer Center... only to find out that no one is there except one volunteer who doesnt know anything about her job....

i waited... patiently .... or anxiously.....

i feel she is getting impatient with the irritating way i look at her.... im really pissed at that time.....

she called anyone she could... but none replied.....

until she said...."balik ka na lang mamyang 11"

i left without saying a word.

grabe... how could no one be around in this time of enrollment.... its 11 oclock already.... so are they assuming that crs is so perfect that nobody, even a single person, would complain?

and so here i am.... in a computer rental station... in the diliman learning center.... really, really pissed.

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yah. i decided to return....

this lair is really an essential tool.

this lair is really a place for total freedom.




and so i feel good now.

my writing spirit returns.