a brand new day...

its tuesday morning and i am here at my sister's house in taytay, rizal. what i imagined to be a great vacation turned out to be one of the most enlightening days of my life. it was really a wake-up call for me to have finally realized that i have grown-up and no longer a boy.

before, i was contented with the way my life is happening. i was a contented little boy, unaware of the future that is for me. i felt comfortable that my family is there, my sister is there. but things have changed. she is now a wife to a caring husband. she is already a wife.

i only realized this now. i thought my sister belongs to me forever. until she moves to her own house. a house very much far from where we live. she has her life that belongs to herself and to her new solid family.

and i am facing, just this morning, a new phase in my life. the once boy who never visioned the future, is now a man greatly anticipating it. i am a man now with a great deal of responsibilities.

until i realized that i am not the happy boy i used to be. i worry how lonely and cruel life will be.

i am an innocent. i am indeed looking for someone who could break this innocence. i am looking for someone to break the loneliness.

i am looking for someone to belong to, just like my sister.